Tuesday, March 30, 2021

 my mom has to have another surgery and the recovery time is 6-8 weeks and i need to help her, so moving is pushed back to fall/early winter. 

i know things happen for a reason, and when family needs me i'm always there, how could i not? i just can't help but feel a bit frustrated, as things were finally moving forward for me and now i have to take care of another patient again. my brothers never have to help. it always falls on me. it's frustrating. 

sometimes i fantasize about being swept up and taken far away from all the responsibilities and emotionally tough stuff. also he'd be devilishly handsome and we'd spend our days making love and sandwiches and nights making art and stuff. hahahaha i'm such a goob i know. it's my fantasy i can dream whatever i'd like!















Tuscany!








Wednesday, March 24, 2021


 re the amount of meatballs and spaghetti he made: respect

you can tell his spirit is full of gusto from his mustache

Monday, March 22, 2021

Friday, March 19, 2021


 my mom made us hunt for our easter baskets with games and stuff :)

easter has always been a big deal in our family. my grandparents would have the big portuguese easter breakfast at their house, then my mom would have the big easter dinner at our house. we rarely went to church, my parents weren't into it, even on holidays. plus they were busy getting ready for the party haha everybody would come, it was great, i miss having family all nearby. we're scattered now, and many have passed. 

i miss my grandparents the most on holidays, i had a dream about them the other night, i stopped by their house and we were just talking in their kitchen while my grandma peeled potatoes at the kitchen table. my grandpa told me something important and i can't remember what he said. a day later my mom is like i found a picture i want you to have, and it was my grandpa. 


 

Thursday, March 18, 2021



having a crummy day so i'm gonna watch this again. a friend recommended this to me about a year ago and it's tremendous and you should watch it too.

Wednesday, March 17, 2021


 I tried a new way of layering my stitches and I’m so pleased with the result. 

Tuesday, March 16, 2021

 I learned how to sew my own clothes in 8th grade, and today I found a bunch of my old patterns😅 

I’m thinking I need to sew some this summer! 

this was clearly early 90s.prob sewed by my mom, who taught me cuz i think she got sick of me always asking her to sew stuff hahaha
SPAGHETTI STRAPS. not the most flattering when you grow d-cups by 13, but i liked staying on trend! (my mom made me wear a tee underneath, i think i've talked before about how my mom didn't let me wear certain stuff my friends got to!)
who needs cargo pants when you can wear a cargo skirt?? i'd wear these with band tees...sonic youth, tool, beck, system of a down, minor threat, nin, ween yadda yadda
i don't think i ever made this dress, so i'm gonna make one this summer.
i remember really liking the frilly sleeves. heck i still do! time to sew one up again!
this was one of my homecoming dresses. i remember my mom and i worked on it together, it was a navy satin, and i wore all silver star jewelry with it.


Monday, March 15, 2021

in skin news

ALERT ALERT!


 why yes i AM posting three photos i just took of myself because i've found the fountain of youth and i'm fixin to cry! i didn't think i needed to snap a before pic cuz i never have results like this, i feel like a cheesy commercial hahahaha

all i've been doing for the past week is using these two products, i only rinse my face in the shower, no toners or anything, just the serum first, then the cream, midmorning and before bed. that's it.



the vitamin c serum is by lilyana btw. 

some kind of sorcery! i feel so young and supple. 

(i should add that i'm 38 years old hahaha not too shabby!)